Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Totus Tuus Sum
Last weekend the chorus I sing in had it's annual winter concert. The song we finished with was Totus Tuus by Henryk Mikołaj Góreck. It is a beautiful piece about dedication to the Virgin Mary. Translated it means, "I am totally yours, Maria." And having sung it hundreds of times…I have spent a lot time thinking about what it means to give yourself totally to someone. It is giving your entire body and spirit to someone else, to do what they wish with it. That is a very powerful concept. And I have been wrestling with that concept, if not on such a deep level. Recently, I have been going through a bit of vocation crisis, as it were. Most of my friends are deciding what to do with their lives right now, looking at colleges, learning what they want to do in life. But I am at a loss. Most of my life I have had a very strong sense of purpose, I knew what I wanted to do, and how I was going to achieve it. I am not really sure what I want to do with my life, and this is making me a little uneasy. I feel like I need guidance. So I guess I will just, as my mom says, Offer it up, and hope by giving myself totally to the world good will come from it.